Duplicitous View.

Life is fun,

Until it’s your turn.

– O.D. ©2020

Art by: Aenami

I’ve seen karma do some crazy things. I would know, I’ve had a few kicks when I thought I could get away with nosense.

Then again, I’ve seen liars get their fair share of kicks too. Good.

You know, I’ve kind of reached a point where if nothing bad happens in over a month I get a little anxious. Dunno what it means to be okay with pain but, I’ve grown a little accustomed to it. It’s okay, you can call me sadistic, I welcome it. BDSM type of stuff is kiddie pool politics compared to the madness going on in my head.

Side note: Please vote in the poll below. Really helps, thanks.

Earth As An Echo Chamber.

The world has an interesting sense of humor,

You think you’ve seen much of what it has to offer

Till the universe pulls you out of your Faraday box

Introducing you to those incapable of understanding

Simple acts of kindness.

– O.D. ©2020

Art by: aerroscape

Mind Reading Error.

Deep down, I like to think of myself as a good person.

So I’ll do you a favor and save you the trouble

Of trying desperately to trace my shadow.

No matter how many times you try and tell me who I am;

You’re wrong.

– O.D. ©2020

Art by: CaringWong

Unpopular opinion: You can never know someone to the core; you don’t even know yourself. So to think you can narrow someone’s personality to your limited perception of them is a little stupid moronic idiotic foolish ridiculous …don’t you think?

But what do I know, I’m just a guy who loves writing.

Undulating.

Proclaiming shamelessly that those who commit suicide are weak

Beckons me to give you news that will split your mind in three.

The good: Today, you learn something new.

The bad: You get to learn that you were far smarter a second ago;

Far smarter in fact, before deciding to lampshade the mushroom cloud;

The mushroom cloud that is ….

The ugly: … Your overbearing ignorance.

– O.D. ©2020

Art by: CaringWong

People who attempt suicide are not weak, they are in psychological pain and are in need of help. You may think it’s irrational for someone to end their life when looking from the perspective of someone who has yet to go through similar pain. And how could you? We’re all different.

Suicide is an act that comes from pain, not weakness. People that attempt/ commit suicide are in fact afraid to die. But the pain they will be going through will be so overwhelming that they see no other way to stop it. I understand how easy it may be for some people to judge and make light of someone else’s pain. After all, I grew up being told the remedy for being depressed was to simply “cheer up” and to stop being “so sensitive, like a lady”

“You’re feeling depressed? But you’re so young, Wait till you’re an adult then you’ll know what true depression is”

True depression? What the f*ck is that bullsh*t? Like there’s some kind of absolute depression that blankets all other forms of depression. F*cking morons, the lot of them. If you have no knowledge to impart because you don’t understand a particular issue well — or rather, if you have nothing constructive to offer, Have the decency to keep your mouth shut.

What pisses me off is how many people commit suicide because they are afraid to open up to all these judgy idiots. These idiots who feel they have suffered more than anyone else. How many more people would we be able to help if these idiots weren’t so flippant about how they address issues regarding suicide? I don’t like cursing, but this issue really gets me heated.

I never told my parents this story (only my sister) because I was afraid they would worry. But at the start of 2020 I was flooded by suicidal thoughts. My poetry did nothing to hide this. I don’t need to get into the particulars of how it reached that point, but, well, everything sucked. It’s like, try as I might, when looking all around me, all I saw were ways I could kill myself in the least painful way.

These thoughts are “gone”now but I know they could just as easily come back. I’m at a point in my life where I no longer know if I’m depressed or not. Take that however you wish, but it has helped me empathize with those in pain. I may not know exactly what they are going through, but I’ve felt and understood a similar pain in my own unique way. And i’ll try, in any way I can to give them a listening ear, and if my writing lights up their day, even better.

But much like everyone else, I have good and bad days; and that is, at times, reflected in my writing. Despite trying to help others, I need to make time to help myself; and this might mean writing a piece that carries little to no positivity.

I believe in helping people help themselves, not saving. Fostering self-reliance; not co-dependency. I’m a teacher, not a cult leader.

The Maker’s Star Seed.

I looked into the abyss and lived to tell you all about it

Didn’t leave unscathed though, take a look at my heart —

Notice the battle scars — how they embellish over my blood pump

With the subtlety of post-war badges.

God penned the dots in my eyes with the cosmic strength of black holes

Rarely — if ever —do words escape the pull of my gaze.

I am a star-eyed dragon, the kind you find hidden in the pages of a book long forgotten

With each word I write, I light a fire —when I speak, I light an unseen pyre,

Averting the gaze of those trapped inside the darkness.

See, most people would rather spend a majority of their lives

Waiting eagerly for their genius to be verified.

… and of course; you’d be right in thinking,

I’m not one of them.

– O.D. ©2020

Art by: CaringWong

I’m a complete idiot and I love it.

Drizzles, Giggles And A List Of Life’s Riddles.

When you see someone fall,

Don’t laugh.

We’re all falling; you’re no better,

For simply falling slower.

– O.D. ©2020

Art by: Gydw1n

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Only in taking the time

To be away from everything. Everyone.

Do I get the chance to reconnect

With the scenic route, that connects directly, 

To my individuality.

 

– O.D. ©2019

 

Art by: Frayde

 

It was a conscious choice to be away from my blog for a while; away from a lot of things I love doing; reconnecting with myself. I always end up feeling recreated and refreshed, welcoming a new perspective and building upon already existing values. I hope everyone had a great Christmas and an even better New Year. 🙂

 

Every year I’m always unavailable on WordPress during that time lol for the same reason I mentioned above.

 

I hope I didn’t keep anyone waiting too long.

W_ave

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Oh, don’t mind me,

I’m just an intellectual phantom

Surfing on the tidal wave

That is my creativity.

 

– O.D. ©2018

 

Art by: yuumei

Appease.

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Contrary to your makeshift doctrine 

And that insatiable Messiah complex;

Choosing not to follow your will

Does not,

Make me a coward.

 

– O.D. ©2018

 

Art by: yuumei

S_tellar

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In a bid to prove his state of mind

As being stellar – if not superior,

He overexerted his attempts to stand out

… Going full circle, like clockwork.

 

Long story short:

Unforeseen yet self-imposed machinations

Now tie the knot between him

And the inevitable re-engagement 

With the lane of the derivative.

 

– O.D. ©2018

 

Art by:  yuumei