Flinch.

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My pride does not take a hit when I apologize…

I do not see it as the balancing of cosmic scales

I do not see it as a win or a loss on a hypothetical scoreboard

I do not see it as the admittance of you being my better

I certainly do not see it as war reparations.

My apology is instead driven by a need to preserve

The nature of my values and the transparency of my soul;

 

What you feel and think as a result of my apology is, quite honestly,

None of my business.

 

– O.D. ©2019

 

Art by:  JoeyJazz

 

My sister said, “You are uncompromising with your identity” and told me she admired that about me. It was sweet.

She made mention of that based on our experiences together. She noticed that no matter what we may be doing; unless I’m genuinely interested in doing something, I won’t do it (with the exception of responsibilities). I won’t flinch, even when those around me feel like I’m killing the mood.

lol You’re killing the mood, whenever anyone says that I smell a collective that is in desperate need of my evasion. But I digress. 

Authenticity is one of the reasons why apologies are so easy for me. Its the preservation of my own integrity first, then whatever you’re feeling second lol. I won’t pretend, I value authenticity far too much for that. 

In turn, the admittance of a mistake won’t take anything from me, I’m learning like everyone else. 

Another key quote I like to remember when I’m in the midst of a heated situation is “Retreating to keep the peace does not make you a coward”

To the few that may ask “why?” It’s simple. Because I’ve got nothing to prove to anyone.