See, when you build a false narrative for everyone to believe

You better be good. Oh, you better be good.

You better make doubly sure you revise,

Re-write and give concise adjustments to all future drafts.


Deception is a hungry beast; what you offer is never enough,

Don’t rest when you know there’s no way to account for future encounters

Crunch time on a daily, nursing crippling anxiety from getting through

Yet another day with a well-crafted lie;

Why complain about mental decline

When its a chosen struggle hitched to your ride? 


What I say may mean little to you,

And that’s okay. After-all,

You’re the expert.


– O.D. ©2019


Art by: JoeyJazz




11 Replies to “Retcon.”

  1. Recently, I told a white lie to some old, old friends and a few family members because I was afraid if I told them what I was really up to, they might think I was too ambitious. I am paying for the lie with mounds of guilt. Very insightful post, Michael. You put me in mind of Mark Twain. Wasn’t it Twain who said something like, “Tell the truth. It is easier to remember what you said”?

    1. Perhaps you were avoiding a scenario where their concerns would harm your progress. I probably would have done the same thing in a bid to avoid conflict.

      We are patient Paul, but I believe there are times when avoiding a particular route is beneficial to our mental health. For example, I don’t hang out with certain “friends” as much anymore because I’ll be “busy”. “Busy with what?” They may ask; “busy staring into the distance and reflecting on my value system”

      To them that does not constitute as being “busy”. But you know what? I don’t care (I mean that nicely lol) I’m busy, so I’m busy.

      If you feel your project will not be received well by certain people in your space, and you think the wise course of action is keeping it under wraps. I’m in total support of your decision. You know your heart better than anyone else 🙂

      1. What you said goes right to the heart of what is necessary for a life well-lived, doesn’t it? I mean, folks who spend little or no time in reflection so often strike me as bouncing from entertainment to entertainment with little other point or purpose to their lives, Michael. Does that make any sense?

      2. It does make sense. As morbid as my viewpoint is of this particular issue is, I will still share.

        I believe happiness to be a distraction from the persistence of existential dread. That the sooner we come to terms with our mortality and loneliness, the easier it is to gain more clarity. Obviously this isn’t full proof, but it coincides with your point.

        I often see people who move from entertainment to entertainment as people who are trying to stay “happy” or distracted. Either they haven’t done enough self-reflection, or they’ve dabbled in it and are afraid of what it means.

        Either way, I get where you’re coming from lol

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