And then, In the next moment

I feel like I am not doing enough

Possessed by my inner idealist;

Frantically, dividing the parts that make me whole

Running a distribution of my many talents 

To cater for the spaces that need filling,


And then, in the next moment

It simply feels futile,

Living every day with burnout, for what?

A result of giving too much, no change,

Thinning patience, I am not a saviour;

It is not my job, 

I question the point of fighting 

For a people not willing to fight for themselves.


And then, In the next moment

I feel like I am not doing enough …


– O.D. ©2018


Art by: yuumei


I realise it is not my job to save the world, but whenever I think of the little I can do to bring some form of change; I am always driven to give more.

When I do help, I am never really expecting any form of compensation. Yes, recognition is nice, but it can only get you so far. In fact, I find myself being evasive of compliments these days; lingering on praise stifles my creativity significantly.

This loop brings about a self-fulfilling prophecy of sorts; I usually, if not always become a hybrid of what I am fighting against. Perhaps in being even more aware of this, it can change.



8 Replies to “Loop.”

  1. “…lingering on praise stifles my creativity significantly.” This line right here sums it up for me. We can’t get stuck in the moments of praise or of attack. The best is to keep focused on why you’re doing what you’re doing in the first place. Please don’t stop doing your bit to make the world a little brighter for others 🙂

    1. You’re absolutely right about not sticking to the moment, especially when time is always moving. Thank you for your kind words Sonia, I hope you are well 🙂

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